Happy Birthday...

To me...


ah well. just another day.. the family doesnt even acknowledge it anyway other than Madre. its family tradition to go out to eat on our birthday with the family. well when we made the schedule for work (my mother, older sister and i all work at the same place) we put a friend of ours on for tonight so that we could go out to dinner for my bday. well sandy and joe decided to take the 3 kids to get their pictures taken, tonight.. cant be during the day because joe works, so has to be tonight, cant be tomorrow night or friday night, tonight... its not like sandy is working all that much, the newborn is only 2 weeks old today. oh well. maybe i will just go get a bottle and celebrate myself. until next time...

Lilienne Elizabeth and rantz

A little girl was born at 8:08am wednesday morning february 4th 2009. Lilienne Elizabeth. 6lbs 1oz 17inches long. but then lost some weight as babys do and went down to 5lbs 11oz. she is totally adorable and I love her to death, I got to see her every day while she was at the hospital, but since she has been home I got to see her last thursday at Wal-Mart. We were supposed to get the kids friday-saturday, but those plans changed for whatever reasons.. then was going to go stay with them tonight-tomorrow, again those plans changed as well.

I am not in a great mood right now. Things were going well for me. On the 11th I finally got my permit! but I am scared to drive right now.. I cant concentrate and the traffic the past weekend has me discombobulated..

Then at work last night I made a few big mistakes and I feel horrible, so I am going to not real keen on going back for awhile.

My little sister is driving me nuts and I am begining to not like her right now. The older sister is kinda on the same page with me right now. I miss the kids soooo much.

This comming wednesday is my bday.. whoot whoot... its going to be hard though because 1 I am just not in the mood to do anything. and this family member dont wanna be around that one, this one dont like the other one.. I am tired of all this conflict BS! I just wanna dig a hole to live in for awhile, but its too freaking cold outside, and the snow keeps comming.. it hasnt been staying on the ground the past few days. but it continues to fall just the same.

Luckily I am going to counceling at a new place now. 2 times a week most of the time. except this week, because well unless an opening comes about tuesday I wont get to go in. and friday I am going to erie with a friend for my bday. and my councelor is only in tuesdays and fridays. ah well.

until next time....

Well, let's see, bunch of stuff has been happening. The snow is never leaving.. Ughs. Guess what? I sent some snow to England too.. *giggles* I told Stuart about a week ago, "I am tired of this darn snow, I am gonna send it to you..." to which he replied, "Sure! we would love snow!" Well there you have it... now what you gonna do?.. but we still got a lot more than you!


Steelers won the Superbowl on Sunday. It was a totally crazy close game. Kept you on the edge the entire time. This win made history for a few things. The youngest coach to take a team to the superbowl. The youngest coach to win the superbowl. The youngest Quarterback to win the superbowl. GOOOOO STEELERS! I am not normally a football fan, but I started watching this superbowl and couldnt stop. The last 2 minutes were extremely intense. Arizona Cardinals were in the lead and Steelers got the ball. They got a touchdown, putting the Steelers back in the lead, but not by much... then back to the Cardinals... with about a minute left to the game, they slowly but surely worked their way to their end zone, one touchdown would have won them the superbowl... 5 SECONDS left of the game, Steelers intercepted the ball. OMG I WAS SCREAMING at the tv, the dog was barking at me like crazy, and Sadly Stella fell asleep at 9:30 so she didnt get to see the last half hour of the game. But first thing she asked in the morning when she woke up is "who won?" HERE WE GO STEELERS HERE WE GOOO!!


Let's see.. what else. Oh tomorrow morning at 7:30am my older sister is having her c-section/surgery and delivering her last lil baby. We dont know whether it will be a boy or a girl, but either way, healthy is what we want! if it is another boy, his name will be Eli Robert. If it is a girl, her name will be Lillian Elizabeth aka Lily. So by 8am February 4th 2009 we are gonna have a new addition to the family. I cant wait! Pictures to come within a few days!


Work for me has picked up quite a bit, due to my older sister having a baby, which is very helpful since I am planning another trans-atlantic flight this summer... hehe! This time though.. I know what to do, and what not to do. I will have the FULL address FULLY memorized before landing, and I will have phone numbers, names, addresses of everything. and I am going to try to have more money with me this time as well. But I really think what gave them red flag about me is because I didnt know all the info of the address of where my friend was staying... I wasnt aware I needed to know this, I gave it to my mother so she could somehow find me should anything have happened, by my plans were Stuart was going to pick me up on the other end, why do I need to know? lol.. WRONG!! But I didnt know this, I had only ever traveled once before this, but didnt leave the country..


Other than this, things are going pretty well. I am looking forward to my birthday on the 18th of this year. My friend is taking me to Splash Lagoon in Erie Pa Friday-Saturday. I cant wait! I will definately take pictures, Bob might come and visit us while we are there as well, which would be lots of fun. I havent seen him really since my last birthday.

Snow at Stella's 2-3-09

Snow in back yard/down the hill

Snow on car and roads

Snow on front porch

*is tired of snow already, and wants to move somewhere with less of it*