What's New in My World

Wow I wasn't aware that so much time has passed since my last post, sorry.

We have been having "mandatory meetings" or parties for everyone here in the house and all grams caretakers that we have set up. they are saturdays bout 2 times a month sometimes more. We dance, tell stories, drink, play games. we have a blast. And we still have friday night game night.

This year me and Gramma bought Madre a fireplace, it is very much loved and very much used. it is rare to go into the living room and see it not on. it is electric with authentic flames but it is way kewl.
Santa came to our house this year. He visited Gramma....

Yes Gram is still here.. well sorta, she had to have surgery last Thursday so she is in a nursing home for 4-6 weeks then will be back. the temp roommate has been moved to perm roommate, at least until Danielle and Mike leave (which I hope is rather quickly). I cant stand their fighting any longer, I told Madre it is either mike or me that is going to leave, so she gave them til the end of the month to find a new place.

His latest outburst was SETTING HIS TRUCK ON FIRE twice... not just once but twice.

He was snow blowing a few driveways all was good and dandy, then he decided he was going to move his truck to another spot, he has no clutch.. so when he went forward he couldn't go in reverse and went straight into a snowbank in front of our house. He couldn't get it to move so he set it on fire. Then put it out with snow. Then got mad again and poured gasoline all through the truck, and set it on fire again. This caught some of he neighbors attention so a young kid came with a snow shovel as well starting to put out the fire. Then the neighbor Mike came down with a fire extinguisher. Our Mike said stop I don't want that goop in my truck.... (DUDE ITS ON FIRE!?!?!) well neighbor Mike told our mike that he is just trying to help, at this point our Mike goes after neighbor Mike with the shovel and goes to hit him and neighbor Mike knocks him to the ground (it was great hehe) and so our Mike jumps up and goes after him again when the kid also helping runs over and hits our Mike over the head with his shovel.. knocking him on his ass yet again. (really it was great... Mr I'm all big, bad and tough gets knocked down 2 times). The flames on his truck went at least 6-8 feet high above the truck.. I should have videoed it but I thought about it too late.. I was more interested in watching it.

The fire dept got there and also a state boy showed up, but they did NOTHING.. oh well.

Let's see... what else is going on...

James (4 years old) is more evil than ever *giggles* he started head start which is kinda like preschool, he seems to enjoy himself. it will be good for him to interact with children of his age. Ben (2 years old) is really getting an interesting personality. He thinks if he closes his eyes, he cant see you, so you cant see him it is so cute.. and that adorable little "pouty face" is great. Lilienne (11 months old) is crawling everywhere and she loves water and if you dont pay attention to her she has a ear shattering scream... definately gets you attention. but all are soo adorable, and I love them to death.

I have 4-6 appointments a week.. DBT (dialactable behavioral therapy) classes on Tuesdays, Counseling Wednesdays and Fridays, Case Manager Appointment once a week, these seem to be very helpful for me. And the Dr's every 3-4 weeks. I got put on new meds after my first hospitalization. I'm not sure if they are working or not. I got the shakes real bad, I can barely hand write which stinks.

Oh yeah, Christmas night, my father informed me and my mother that he isn't happy that him and Danielle's relationship is over and we tried to tell him its because he doesn't approve of her and Mikes relationship. He claims that it is due to what happened to me and Kenn when I was younger. We told him that isn't true, it was when he disapproved of her and Chris's relationship. (Chris is our step brother but not blood related.. Danielle dated him for over 2 years and my father made Chris's life hell for this relationship). That is what ruined their relationship between Danielle and my father.

I think I pinched a nerve or something in my legs. first it was my left leg and now it is both legs. they hurts so bad but I have tried all sorts of ways to try to alleviate the pain. I have found one way, but my counselor isn't real excited for me.

October 20th me and a friend of mines went to the Pittsburgh Zoo. it was a gorgeous day and we had a lot of fun. I was a little disappointed they didnt have an aquatic area, they had polar bears, california sea lions and penquins but no dolphins waaaah :( but they did have a wide range of critters around, a few exibits were closed down due to the animals need warmer climates, it was a perfect day, but days before and after were really cold and rainy. For the first time I got to try out my new camera I got off Ebay... I fell in love with it,it makes them look like they are right beside you. great!